19×365,或者准确点14×365+5×366天,其中的2个闰年在2岁和6岁的迷迷糊糊中就过了,或许2000年的那个366当时也不甚清楚。然而不管怎样,毕竟是个19岁的人了。
有人说19岁意味着责任,19岁意味着成长,19岁意味着右脚缓缓的离开单纯的中学年代的同时左脚踩在了缤纷而繁复的大学生活中。我不知道十几天后载我去另一个城市的飞机是会载着我的期待,我的喜悦;抑或是载着我的留恋,我的回眸。想起何炅在他的书里有一次写道:“我曾经想过到了30岁,我一定会很清楚自己要的是什么。可是,后来我发现之所以想要的目标不再模糊依稀,其实是因为越来越发现自己能把握住的东西所剩不多了。”虽然说自己不全然如此,然而踩在20的边缘的我,依旧有感觉前方朦胧,而身边的景色却在飞快的划过,如那晚不曾看见的流星。
Shakespeare曾经感慨:“Shall I compare thee to a summer's day.” Tagore也曾将生命与夏日之花作比。诚然夏日是绚烂的,然而在重庆或者江南或者桂林炎热的夏日里,我或曾感到大汗淋漓,却难以感到自己青春的生命在燃烧,平平如同无波无风的漓江的水面,倒映着远山的寂寞。
但这毕竟是一个一生一次one and only的漫长的夏天啊……
Tags: 19,river south, guilin, summer
前几天,下了一张Jay Brannan专辑《Living cover》。里面有几首原来他自己创作的歌,比如说drowning啊什么的;但是里面有一首say it's possible却一下子让我听来有几分触动。今天翻来了原唱Terra Naomi的版本,虽说是一首很伤感的歌,但Terra Naomi唱来却还是略带几分阳光的。相较而言,Jay的版本就显得如竹林流水,难觅知音般的惆怅。
不过说来,我倒更喜欢jay brannan的版本。
I SEE THE LIGHTS ARE TURNING
AND I LOOK OUTSIDE THE STARS ARE BURNING
THROUGH THIS CHANGING TIME
IT COULD HAVE BEEN ANYTHING WE WANT
ITS FINE SALVATION WAS JUST A PASSING THOUGHT.DONT WAIT ACT NOW
THIS AMAZING OFFER WONT LAST LONG
ITS ONLY A CHANCE TO PAVE THE PATH WERE ON
I KNOW THERE ARE MORE EXCITING THINGS TO TALK ABOUT
AND IN TIME WELL SORT IT OUTAND THOUGH THEY SAY ITS POSSIBLE TO ME
I DONT SEE HOW ITS PROBABLE
I SEE THE COURSE WERE ON
SPINNING FARTHER FROM WHAT I KNOW
ILL HOLD ON
TELL ME THAT YOU WONT LET GO
TELL ME THAT YOU WONT LET GOAND TRUTH IS SUCH A FUNNY THING
WITH ALL THESE PEOPLE
KEEP ON TELLING ME
THEY KNOW WHATS BEST
AND WHAT TO BE FRIGHTENED OF
AND ALL THE REST ARE WRONG
THEY KNOW NOTHING ABOUT USAND THOUGH THEY SAY ITS POSSIBLE TO ME
I DONT SEE HOW ITS PROBABLE
I SEE THE COURSE WERE ON
SPINNING FARTHER FROM WHAT I KNOW
ILL HOLD ON
TELL ME THAT YOU WONT LET GO
TELL ME THAT YOU WONT LET GOIM NOT ALRIGHT
THIS COULD BE SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL
COMBINE OUR LOVE INTO SOMETHING WONDERFUL
BUT TIMES ARE TOUGH I KNOW
AND THE PULL OF WHAT WE CANT GIVE UP TAKES HOLD
Tags: desperate, Jay Brannan
暑假很长,长得好像要人睡到世界末日一般。事实上,这个漫长的暑假里我倒也没多睡什么,常常是凌晨两三点睡,然后十点左右醒来。中午或许有兴致打个小盹儿,但一般也不过一个小时。
暑假很长,暑假里人也很闲。除了之前为报志愿忙碌了一段时间,间插了一个小学同学会,几场电影,几次外出散步,或许还有几次买东西,我都一直是闲在家里。电视无聊,上网无趣……这是一个很怪的感觉,你为了打发无聊,所以看电视、打电脑来消遣,然而最后你却发现自己感到更无聊。
买了书,却不想翻翻;下了电影,却懒得看看;安个游戏,电脑慢得让人抓狂。还记得那天跟老爸去买N79的时候,跑遍杨家坪的国美、商社、苏宁都说缺货(搞笑的是苏宁的人说N79出了好久了,没有货,然而事实上N79只出了半年左右,几乎是除了N97以为N系列的最新款了),一时间顿然想起一句话“行拂乱其所为”。(尽管后来还是买到了……)
乱其所为,当是天将降大任。然而我一个闲来无聊的人,再这个漫漫暑假之中到底又能有什么大任可以肩负呢?
张义昕说他高半夜凉初透考完后,感觉彻底失去了寄托。我不敢说自己也是如此,毕竟我并没有他学习上的狂。然而毕竟感觉是少了些什么。之前为了梦想也好,前途也好,甚至或许说任务也好的单调却又单纯奋斗已经告一段落;而如今却可以几乎为所欲为。我想这无聊可能是从一种习惯到另一种习惯转变过程的木然吧。
无聊就无聊吧,于是我也承认了自己这样的状态。想着想着找了一本名著的标题作为签名,当然也是这篇文章的标题。
我想我是彻底的无聊了……
It seems it has taken a lot of time before I fully recover from the catastrophe of the super exam. Anyway, I'm finally back, sitting in front of my computer typing some nonsense to almost no one. Well, C'est la vie, isn't it?
The yo2 blog system( I mean the version of wordpress the website is using) has updated to 2.7, which I find is really nice. I didn't expect it to change so much during these a couple of months.
Well I guess another thing that I didn't expect about the current Internet is that a large number of websites including bing which was just released some days before, Youtube(never the first time), and some reported twitter, was banned. I guess I'll have to wait until some wall opens its gate for us to take a look at those.
Oh well, I guess it will be a long holiday, won't it?
小语种面试完了,自己感觉倒是很糟糕。我面试了两组,第一组为之前报的西、法、德语(按志愿顺序),第二组则是加试的朝鲜语和缅甸语。
感觉西班牙的那些个问题几乎都不知道怎么办,老师问的文学阅读的一些东西,除了答了一些关于《变形记》的东西,其他的什么都答不上来,尤其是关于拉丁文学的,我的天,练《百年孤独》都记不得了。
倒是东南语系的那几个老师还蛮和蔼的,关于朝鲜韩国的几个问题答得也算勉勉强强,可是缅甸军政府执政的东西完全是被orz ed了(Here, "orz" is used as a verb),还有一个更强的:
老师:你认为缅甸和中国的关系怎样?
我:缅甸和中国的关系比较好,是一衣带水的友好邻邦。
老师:……(飞快的指正)
后来我跟很多人说了这个,但是居然没有一个人知道我那句话哪里错了,也不知道老师为什么突然反应那么强烈。你可以想想,答案在后头。
A:不是一衣带水,是山水相连。
(附带一衣带水的解释:http://cy.5156edu.com/showgs.php?id=12619)
Remember the 90s? No? Well, put down that Modest Mouse CD, Sally, and I’ll tell you all about it. They were heady times. The economy was rocking, and so was the White House. While the market was going up, Monica was going down and we were all having a laugh while Republicans tried to dismantle democracy in America. Yes, we were all gleefully hoodwinked by the early volleys of a culture war that is just now taking its toll.
But the real fun was happening across the pond in Jolly Old England. Brit Rock was making a splash and Lad Culture was taking off. Instead of being reprimanded and threatened with impeachment, Britain’s movers and shakers were celebrating loutish behavior with Liam and Noel Gallagher leading the way. Live Forever: The Rise and fall of Brit Pop is a DVD that looks at the cultural precursors precipitating the rise of Brit Rock and the political co-opting of a movement that led to its ultimate decay.
Britain in the 80s was politically synced up with America. Thatcherism was to Britain what Reaganism was to the United States. Conservativism was the way and you better step in line or face the wall. In Live Forever, Noel Gallagher explains it thus:
“I think a lot of young people had accepted Conservativism and dull culture and daytime telly…Britain was dead in the 80s.”
But Conservativism naturally leads to an underground swelling of creative angst; a bucking of the powers that be. The creative stew and political desperation rises to a boiling point. In the late 80s, three elements bring Britain to the edge of that boiling point: the poll tax riots, the introduction of Ecstasy into the club scene, and the Stone Roses.
In the summer of 1990, high on the massive European success of their debut album, the Stone Roses headlined the Spike Island festival.
“Spike Island was the blueprint for my band,” said Gallagher in the film.
The Stone Roses brought art and music and a hint of politics to the youth culture and energized a nation of young Brits who’d known nothing but Thatcherism. The band’s appearance at Spike Island was the gathering of the tribes and anyone who followed Brit Rock at the time could feel a change coming.
“Spike Island was freedom after being locked up for 11 years by conservative government,” said journalist Jon Savage.
But like so many flashes of brilliance, the Stone Roses were a dream ultimately left unfulfilled. A five year lawsuit and eventual personality strife kept the band from the world dominance they’d so arrogantly declared theirs. The band’s disintegration left a hole in Britain’s musical psyche; a vacuum. And nature abhors a vacuum.
Just as Britain‘s music scene rebelled against Conservativism, so too did America’s. November 1991 saw the release of Nirvana’s Nevermind. And everything else paled in comparison, if only in the public’s eye. For a time, Britain was just as caught up in the anger (or apathy) of grunge as America was. Suddenly, British culture was again overcome by the exports of its former colony and Brit Rock languished for a time. There were glimmers of hope here and there: Suede’s debut album shook for a spell; Radiohead appeared but were at first written off as “the band who sings ‘Creep;’” Blur put out a good record but hadn’t yet shaken their affiliation with the Roses, Happy Mondays, or Inspiral Carpets that was soooo 1990!
But in April of 1994, Kurt Cobain ended grunge with a shotgun blast. Around the same time, Oasis released Definitely Maybe to a smattering of critical attention and a growing legion of tough fans who soaked up the Gallagher brothers' lifestyle as much as their music. Soon, the band was too big to ignore and the NME started to pay attention.
Like all cycles, the cultural pendulum was swinging back overseas. In the same month as Oasis’ television debut in England, the Atlantic Bar in London opens. The Atlantic quickly became the gathering place for hip, young celebrities. Over the next year and a half or so, a small flood of art and pop culture pours out of England. See if you remember any of this:
• Artist Damien Hirst opens his controversial “cow” exhibit.
• The film Trainspotting and accompanying soundtrack shocks everyone and spawns a spate of gross fiction from freshman creative writing majors across the U.S.
• Verve releases A Storm in Heaven. Stoner rock is saved, and—quite impossibly—made cool!
• Pulp releases Different Class and reopens the class wars that Brits always fight, sometimes more quietly than other times.
• Kate Moss
Suddenly, England was the center of the world again, at least as far as the culture of cool was concerned. A new generation of Brits came of age who resented America’s cultural dominance and it was like the opening scene to Austin Powers all over again.
“American’s have tremendous confidence, but not much talent,” said the publisher of Revolver Magazine (whose name I cannot remember nor find online).
The spotlight was focused exclusively on Britain and particularly on the boys in the bands. Pictures were published daily in the British tabloids of one Gallagher or another picking a fight with a local in a club (or more often, with each other). Drunken nights were front page fodder. The Lad culture that gave us what is now Maxim magazine was just boys being boys.
But there’s only so much room in the spotlight, and a rivalry soon sparked—or was created—by the British media who'd grown accustomed to the phat sales whenever the face of a member of the new rock royalty graced their covers.
The Oasis-Blur battles are touched upon in Live Forever, but woefully handled. The interviewers let the Gallagher brothers off with their bawdy, flippant boasts and Blur’s Damon Albarn blows off the whole thing like it was so much hot air—which it ultimately was. But shit, we want some dirt but this film basically breaks it down to the obvious class differences between the two bands, leaving us with just one gem from Noel Gallagher on the subject, “I worked on building sites. That makes my soul fundamentally purer.”
But that’s not to say that class doesn’t play a major role in the appeal of Brit Rock. It certainly does, if to no one else, than to the Brits themselves.
“For a long time a lot of people were marginalized like you were a turd,” Pulp’s Jarvis Cocker says of the traditional class hierarchy in Britain. But the 90s saw the class roles reversed, “Now the turd was center stage.”
Oasis’ What’s the Story Morning Glory debuts in October of 1995, bringing the band to its creative and influential peak. In August 1996, they headline a show at Knebworth castle, which was the largest free standing concert in British history. That kind of pull is bound to turn some heads, and where there are people, there are politicians.
That year, the publisher of Vanity Fair convinced Tony Blair to appear in the Brit Rock edition of the magazine, since New Labour was billing itself as a breath of fresh air. Liam Gallagher and wife appear on the cover. Noel got the call first.
“[Vanity Fair tells me] ‘if you don’t do [the cover] Blur will,’ to which I laugh and hand the phone to Liam,” said Gallagher.
But Noel soon signs on with New Labour and actively campaigns for the party, as do several other prominent young stars. Like his American counterpart, Bill Clinton, Blair sold himself as a populace candidate ready to take his country across “the bridge to the 20th Century,” as Clinton was so fond of saying. Blair and his party won the majority in Parliament and many of the stars who helped get him there were invited to 10 Downing Street as a show of thanks. But the honeymoon was short and soon many of the rockers who had put their faith in New Labour found themselves out of favor with their new leadership. Albarn even claims in the film to have received a threatening call from a Blair staffer when the star criticized the Prime Minister’s decision not to send his kids to public schools.
The perceived selling out of New Labour left many stars bitter and more fans disappointed in the co-opting of their scene by hustling politicians. Noel Gallagher could hardly carry the banner of the working class hero as he’s glad-handing the Prime Minister in front of a throng of cameras. It was the beginning of what would be a long, slow decline for Brit Rock.
Britain fell slowly into a funk as Oasis’ 1997 album Be Here Now failed to impress critics or shoppers. The day after the album’s release, Britain wakes up to the news of Lady Di's death in a car crash. Soon, ex-Take That star Robbie Williams releases the massive “Angels,” which is more or less a light rock homage to Oasis. Before the end of the year, the charts are dominated by hits from the Spice Girls and a kiddie band called S Club 7 Juniors. It is over.
Today, there are lots of good British bands, including the fantastic Libertines, the brash and flashy Darkness, and the schizophrenic Franz Ferdinand (yes I know they’re Scottish, save the hate mail), but none have captured the imagination or directed the culture of Britain’s youth like those bands of the mid 90s. In fact, you’d be hard-pressed to identify them as British at all on first listen. And maybe that’s where Brit culture is now.
As Massive Attack’s 3D says near the end of Live Forever, “Today, Britain is quite anonymous.”
Live Forever is a brief look at the elements that made and broke Brit Pop/Rock in the 90s, clocking in at 103 minutes. While it falls short in going into depth about how the movement was seduced by New Labour or how Britain’s two biggest bands were duped into a war to sell tabloid magazines, it’s still an interesting look at the scene and the characters who made it so fucking fun in the first place. Besides, there’s great music, clothes, and hair throughout. And as Liam says, “you’ve gotta have a decent haircut if you’re going to be front man of a band.”
Who can argue with that?
By Derek Phillips, September 6, 2004
或许你记得这篇日志。
为何我不又写一篇?我不得不说,这学期由于下的歌太多了,以致在我删了其中的约莫500MB的歌过后,还是将我的硬盘撑到了6.81GB。所以说如果要我再写上述的一篇,那必然是天杀的也么哥。
好了,言归正传。我就大概的给大家分享几段非常有趣的歌词吧。(the rest to follow in English..as well)
VIVA LA VIDA, Coldplay--I've told you that they're gonna release a new album this year, and they really did. Their horizon has obviously been broaden thanks to Brian Eno. Anyway, this song has something to do with reigns, but actually it is about today's politics--Being a president/chairman/prime minister/whatever is just the tool used by some greater power. The following is what I like most for it describes quite a magnificent scene.
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
MY LOVE HAS GONE, Josh Rouse--Only one sentence which fully describes the unbounded loneliness.
I sleep with the TV on.
It's the only sound,
Our love has gone.
Especially pay attention to the adverb "on". I love this word so much.
CAN'T HAVE IT ALL, Jay Brannan--The whole song is interesting. For example, "moisturized ten times tonight", oh my... However, after you have listened to the whole song, you will probably feel sorry for our life which is almost always not the wonderful one we want.
applying moisturizer in the microwave window
for the tenth time, he should've called me an hour ago
would he be here with flowers if i lived in arizona?they say there's no love left in the big cities, it's kinda true
i guess you'll find me coming soon to a small town near you
i'll sell my guitar so i can by myself a tractorfuck this, this can't be my life
i moisturized ten times tonight
why can't i sit down and write,
bring this question to light?do you want a lover, or do you want a life?
one hand or the other, the butter or the bread knife?
do you choose winter, spring, summer, or fall?
it's driving me crazy that i can't have it alldo we hold the future, or does it come in peace?
and if it's in my hands, are you sure it should be in brittle hands like these?
life, love, and the pursuit of all the things they promised me
can i have all of the above? are the best things in life truly free?
VALENTINE'S DAY, Linkin Park--This is truly a song which I have downloaded for quite a long time. But suprisingly, I have never really taken a good look at the lyric. This is a song for those who lost their lovers, which is very common and ordinary. But how about this one:"a black winter took you away/from sight/another darkness over day/That night." Recently my ipod is playing this for times and times.
My insides all turn to ash,
So slow.
And blow away as I collapsed,
So cold.A black winter been away,
From sight.
Another darkness over day,
That night.
And the clouds above move closer,
Looking so dissatisfied.
But the harvest wind kept blowing, blowing.I used to be my own protection,
But not now.
'Cause my path has lost direction,
Somehow.A black winter took you away,
From sight.
Another darkness over day,
That night.
And the clouds above move closer,Looking so dissatisfied.
And the ground below grew colder,
As they put you down inside.
But the harvest wind kept blowing, blowing.So now you're gone,
And I was wrong.
I never knew what it was like,To be alone on a Valentine's Day,
To be alone on a Valentine's Day.
Oh, why all the songs above are quite sad and lonely? Maybe this what kind of person I truly am...
Tags: coldplay, Jay Brannan, Josh Rouse, linkin park, lyric